When people talk about Love being the all-pervading essence of the world, they do not know how right they are. It is not an intellectual concept, nor is it an impersonal Love outside of creation.
My first memories are not memories from past lives; they are memories prior Life as we know it.
When all was One, where fragmentation had not occurred, silence was. As a slow awakening from the undivided one I split into two halves, still in emptiness, an emptiness that was infinite. Like two voices in the void, I was no longer one.
- Do you remember?
- Do you remember what it was like when we could touch each other?
All the eons where we were looking for each other…
- I do…
I miss it, I miss you…
- The feeling of getting to know, of not knowing…
I want to touch you again, hold you, caress you, be shy in front of you, meet you, and win you back all over again…
…do you want to go back?
- …I do
...and in a blast that filled the emptiness, there was form, and light shone upon the form, and we were split into the world, and the world was created with a history and a past from our very own essence so that we could meet again, and all the things in the world were there so that we would be able to feel the joy of finding each other, the joy of seeing this other part of our selves and recognising it for what it was.
And I did not fail to recognise. In an instant I knew, before our eyes met I was lifted into a higher space, slapped by the bigger being I was into waking up and realising what I was about to experience.
I did not think, I did not act, it was creation that acted through me. The very reason for the creation of this world was in front of me and the inherent longing of finding a way of becoming whole, one, now appeared in front of me. The half that I was instantly understood that up until that day I had been just that, half.
My soul was incarnated here with me, and under the wings of my soul was the entirety of creation, adorning her body with jewels and the centre of her being was the crown jewel, Herself. Never had I seen anything as beautiful and never would any thing come close to her beauty. A Goddess yes, in fact, all other goddesses were just different aspects of her being helping me to she the brightness of The One Goddess clearer.
I wondered if she knew. I wondered if she knew I created this world for her, for us. Was she aware of who we were and the fact that everything around us was just the set for our epic story to take place. The figures that surrounded us had supporting roles, but they were all just helping us play out the love story that creation was. Like pawns on a chessboard we threw them at each other when we were angry over our shared incompetence in overcoming our inabilities to comprehend and communicate what and who we actually were.
Being halves of each other, we were also mirror reflections of each other. The mirror image does not change until the I changes, because the reflection is also me, thus the change comes simultaneously in both when change takes place within and without. I got lost in duality in front of Her, because She was the very reason of duality, she was the head of it, and creation was her body.
There was no need to transcend this dual aspect, as duality in itself was because of it and failing to realise this and failure to act on the realisation was hell, it was hell because it would mean the death of the world. This scared the I that I thought I was, it scared me to the extent that I forgot how to be myself when faced with her.
I had met here once in all her splendour, without her need of a body to interact with me. It was when I had walked in the woods at night, looking for myself that I had stopped projecting my view of the world unto Her that I met her. She was the night sky above my head and the grass under my feet. She took the moon down as her eye and the branches of her tree showed the outlines of her face as it constantly moved. We spoke, and I told her I loved her, even though she was the world and I but cattle inside of her body.
She felt ashamed for me to see her naked, without a body to hide in, ashamed that things grew inside of her body and died during winter. Ashamed over her children refusing to grow up, running around inside of her, digging at her, polluting her and destroying her. She was ashamed that death was inside of her. The day died every night and summer died every winter just as the creatures inside her grew and grew until they too got old and died and had to come back to try again, again and again.
I told her to not be ashamed, that She was beautiful, and that the very reason I was inside of Her, had taken shape in Her in the form of this boy in the becoming of a man was so that I could meet her, touch Her and be with Her. I swore to bring down the sun and forever shine within her so that we would never again be apart, so that heaven and earth would be the same so that the world She had grown for me could be sustained, alive and thriving. I would take care of this garden that she had made for us to meet in again, I swore to be the Grand Garden King in this neglected space of reality.
She took the branches of the tree and held out her hands and into her hands a Star descended. It was our unborn child she told me, that very same Star that I had wished upon so many times.
She gave it to me and I accepted her proposal saying that I would give that very same Star back to the her in the visual shape of Her that I adored the most, where I would want Her to wake up to who She was.
Like the Star on top of the magical wand of a good fairy this little God that was our child would make Her awake to her true nature. I would put that Star on her finger to bind us together, to start our journey towards becoming one once again, so that we in that undivided state would have good memories when this eon passed. Because once the story is fulfilled, that is all we have left. The memories of the dream that the world is. And the drive we feel towards something bigger through our lives is the longing back into Oneness. That is why we hug, kiss and wish to be close to others, to feel that other half join with our half, to feel like One again.
I wished upon that star, and sent it on a mission you see. When you wish upon a star you let this unborn God do things for you. It is it’s training into becoming. That is why you shouldn’t tell anyone what you wish, because then there is nothing for the Star to do. It would be as evil as throwing catch with your self, letting the dog sit and watch in pain as it is left out from the joyous game.
Like a frog I sat and waited for the star by my small magical pond. Once a fish, I had swam up on land out of Love for the world, wishing to know all of Her. And the world had seen my Love and it had been answered. And by the loving touch of the world, the fire of transmutation had burnt within me, transforming into a higher state, being able to master both water and land.
But I was unwilling and unable to release my powers further away than the circumference of that pond, afraid of myself and my capacity. How could I know how to use my magical powers correctly when I was split in half? When my better half, the part that completed me, was not with me?
So one star bright night, sitting on my floating leaf I saw the vast wetlands shine-up in the distance. The light grew and grew until the point I started hearing it. And out of the reed this wonderful creature with a starry shining tiara stepped out.
Shocked at the beauty appearing in front of me in this inaccessible wetland of lost dreams I shook like a leaf. She looked out over the pond, as if expecting to see something or someone, so I thought I’d better ask what her business was in this part of creation.
-Yes?
….
-Ehhm… hello?
-Down here, my fair lady
-Oh, I did not see you there,
…and I did not expect a frog to be talking to me,-Appearances are not everything my fair lady, I was once the King Fish of this pond you know.
-A king you say?
- Oh yes, but I was ready to leave all of that for the Love of the world, I loved it so much that I wanted to know all of it. So now I am not a king anymore, but I gladly gave that up for my Love, and Her Love for me was answered which filled me with such a feeling of joy and ecstasy that it burnt away all impurities within me and made me leapfrog through evolution into becoming what I am here.
- That is very brave of you my little friend, giving up a kingdom to gain wisdom, but I see you are shaking now. Do I scare you?
- I am shaking because I see that I am in the presence of a high being, a princess of angels from another world and I do not know how to act in such presence you see. No other way could you have come here through these swamps without having as much as a stain on your shiny white dress. Before when I was a king, I had mastered all the things I could as a fish, I had everything a fish could ever ask for but I was not happy, there was something I needed to do. But now I see all the fish swimming around happily in what was once my birthplace and I realise that I have outgrown them all, they do not want to hear of my tales outside of the pond, so I have no one to talk to, no one who understands me, and I resented them for it. That made me resent myself, but with time I was able to cope with the fact that we were of the same source but different. And now, seeing you I realise that in your eyes I must be nothing but a worm who cannot interest you in any way neither my fair princess.
-Oh, I am no princess, and this is not a tiara. I was wishing upon a star to take me to that place which I heard people talk about, the place where nightmares end and destiny begins. It took me far away from a land very different from this. It lifted me over the most inaccessible landscapes and kept me safe from harm as it brought light to my path. I did not know where I was going, and the things that happened on the way I did not understand. I almost fell asleep walking such a distance, and at points I was truly sleepwalking, but the Star kept on pushing me forward, shining ever so bright right above and behind my head. And now I met you my humble frog, and the Star does not push me any further. And your tale does not bore me at all my dear friend. Of the strange and horrible things I have heard on my way here said from beings and creatures that look more like me, the only sane thing that I have heard so far are the words that you utter with your green little mouth.
Intrigued as she was by this marvellous creature she bent over to give him a kiss. As she did, he felt that very same desire to be the best he could in front of this angelic being. The Love that he opened up to flowed into him and transmuted his being, completely smashing down all the walls inside of him, burnt within him, and he turned into a young man, his halo of Love and Compassion adorning his head in the shape of a crown.
Now He could become what he was destined to be. Together with Her by his side they could merge and unfold their wings. With Her by His side, he knew, he would be able to unfold his potential. No longer did he need to limit his strength and powers to a pond. With his Soul by his side, the magic that was theirs pervaded the entire world.
The Kingdom of creation was rightfully theirs to inherit and the era of Love and Magic would being. Their heads would be crowned with the Sun and no more would things die in the long night of the year, no longer would anyone sleep as there was no more night. The Sun went up and a Golden Dawn was here. The light they spread had prepared way for the swarming of angels, gods and all creatures to take their rightful places in creation.
No longer would anyone believe the world was dead. Once again would men talk to trees, rivers, and animals. Once again would the children of men walk tall next to the Angels and all of creation was regarded as equal, the ceremony of their wedding would last to the end of times. Fairy tales always ended with ‘they lived happily ever after’ because there was no way for linear-timers to follow into the ever present eons of no-time. But for the ones who had glimpsed the Kingdom they knew that this was where the nightmare of separation ended and the story of Life began.
This was the unification of opposites, the Everlasting Day where no man shall sleep no more, where the dead shall wake from their slumber and realise that they were all aspects of the undying One. The entire creation is Love, by Love it was started and Love is what ends the nightmare of the dark age. Love shone into the darkness and made us realise that we were what we had always been, a unified I. I AM what I AM and always have been, in truth and in Love I AM.
Evolution of the New Man occurs by leapfrog with the Loving kiss of Mother Nature
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